Tuesday, September 28, 2010


So Kyle and I were talking tonight during commercials. I was telling him about a little redneck boy I met today named Draven. Kyle thought it was a stupid name. I told him I had thought of some unique names earlier for our future children. He hates them because he's still 100% set on the ones we already have ready to use. I LOVE the names we have picked out, but I need back up names you know? So here's what we have: Italics are for set in stone names. Tell me what you think!

Allie Kate(Yup Allie off The Notebook)
Madeline Adele(my grandma who died last year's middle name)
Mackenzie Anne(my middle name)

Harrison Wayne(Wayne is my FIL middle name)

Baby Making
Well...haven't been thinking about it much actually! I thought about those baby names stuff today without feeling sad or lacking patience. Woo! Progress!

Today at work I rocked! Lots of progress, and lots of good things happening even though it was hectic for a few hours!

Random Thought
Who invented mini nilla wafers? They are awesome, and make me feel like I'm not being a fatty!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Last week

Kyle has been extra sweet and snuggly this past week. He's always sweet, but this is love 24/7! I think a lot of it is because he was gone all last week. I love every minute it. I get extra little hugs, and kisses. Last week I was off work for part of the day and we went on a date! We went to Taco Bell for lunch! We totally acted like it was a date, and were all awkward. We do that sometimes. In the car we were like "So uhm I had a great time Kyle. Call me?" and he said something like "Yeah I had a good time too. We should do this again", and then he proceeded with a very inappropriate comment. We were never like that when we dated because we'd known each other for years. I have been extra appreciative of him. I tell him all the time how much I love him and I say thank you and please more!

Baby Makin
I was very frustrated about no baby this week. I torture myself just thinking about it. A few things happened this week that well...I didn't handle well. Kyle's cousin came over to his work to show off their new baby girl Karrigan. I wouldn't even touch the baby. I was so weird! Now newborns scare me because of their wiggly heads, and I'm afraid they will break. I was so awkward, and I know people thought I was a total freak and rude for not wanting to go near the baby. Another part of me doesn't want to be happy for people who have babies right now. How rude right? I'm a terrible person. I'm being selfish and ridiculous! I'm not even trying to have a baby that hard so why am I complaining! I need to stop it. Well this weekend at a tailgate I held one of Kyle's good friend's baby Jacob. I LOVED IT! That baby was sooooo cute and all smiley! He was 5 months old so his head didn't wobble :) Kyle held him first, and I was like all awwwwwwwww because you could tell Kyle wanted a baby really bad at that moment. My husband will be an amazing dad. He's such a caring, and funny person! I'm rambling, sorry. Ok so today Kyle and I had a HUGE talk on Wednesday about all kinds of stuff. The man let me vent, cry, and talk lots of topics out for hours. So here is what happened today....I gave it all up to God. Yup, me...Meagan. I am finally opening up more, and I can talk about God a little bit more comfortably. Woo! So yeah I gave it all to Him today. I felt a HUGE weight lifted. God has a perfect time for a baby, and I will patiently wait.

Pray for me this week if you think about it. Work is stressing me out a little because I don't have a consistent schedule everyday. It's my own fault. Lots going on with the kiddos, and at the school. Pray for the kids I work with. I do everyday.

Random Thought
Why do I buy bananas if I never get around to eating them? I found them today on my counter, and they were all squishy so I made banana nut bread!!

Here's a picture from our lunch date! Oh the wonderful awkward hand touch as we reach for a treat! :) Love it! Yes, we took this picture on purpose. We are cute like that!

Monday, September 20, 2010


Alright so I have decided how to organize my blog. I will post each time something going on with married life, baby making, and then a vent/miscellaneous section. At the end I will put a random thought of that day. Be warned...I can be really weird/gross/inappropriate with my random thought

Kyle was gone from Tuesday-Sunday last week. It was weird. He had to go to a work sign conference thing in South Dakota with his dad. He learned a lot, and had great bonding time with his dad. We've never been apart that long. I missed him a lot, mainly at night. I was CRAZY busy last week though. My mom and I talked weeks ago about deep cleaning my house. I am talking clearing out closets, and going through stuff that hasn't been touched in well....over a year. I hate cleaning, fyi. I have to be in a mood to clean. I love to vacuum though! My mom is amazing. She pushed me to get a bunch of stuff done, and worked on my house while I was at work some. I was completely behind on paperwork though. Some nights she would clean around me, and then I'd take a break and help her. That woman knows how to clean. She also knows that I need help sometimes with it because I get overwhelmed easily. My house looks sooo clean and organized now! Kyle was very impressed :( I was really stressed out all week. I barely had time to remember he wasn't there. I had either paperwork, cleaning, zumba, or extra stuff to do every night. By the time the weekend came around all I wanted to do was sit on my couch and watch movies I rented. That is exactly what I did! Kyle and I talked maybe 20 minutes each day. Well..we usually text/direct message on Echofon all day anyways. It was really hard at night. I am totally scared of the dark, but have to sleep in pitch black. I swear I heard noises, and freaked out every night . I watched too much Rescue 911 when I was younger! All those creepers breaking into houses..ahhhhh! I was glad when he finally came home! You really get used to sleeping next to someone, and never think about it until they aren't there. He liked the new Cindy Crawford sheets I splurged on! I am glad I wasn't a total mess while he was gone. I always worry that I am too dependent on him. I missed my cutie man friend!

Uhm so still no "lady". I guess I just wait until this next cycle shows up before I call my doctor again. Weird that it skips a month after being off BCP since late February. I guess I have been a little stressed with work, and possibly eating too much. Now I am cutting down calories, and doing Zumba twice a week at church. I also walk the halls A LOT at school so I am not just sitting on my buttocks being lazy. It really changes day to day on how I feel about this topic. I know I am not healthy right now, and probably not the best body to house a baby. PLUS I have to remember that GOD has a perfect time for us...and I just have to be patient.

5 Fun Facts about me

1. I'm Team Edward all the way! I do not find him attractive though. I will argue my side until I am blue in the face. I'm not a Twilight addict. I just love to read, and get so sick of teeny bopper's basing characters on looks.

2. Since I've gained weight over the years I randomly stick my finger in my belly button to see if it makes a sound.

3. I have very weird sexual dreams about Kevin Costner, Harrison Ford, and other old men like that. Kyle is always in my dreams too, standing in a corner.

4. I think I have social anxiety. I can't stand big groups, and I am so awkward and quiet around groups of adults. Yup working in mental health has caused me to self diagnose myself.

5. I love to take baths. It has to be super hot though. It's not ready until I have to jump out of it a few times because it burns my booty :)

Random Thought
Why do boys (especially 8-12 year old and 20+ year olds) feel the need to adjust/scratch/grab their "junk" all the time?

Saturday, September 18, 2010

New Start

Hey! What happened to my blog? I erased all my old posts because I want to start over. Why? I want my blog to have some kind of flow to it, but not sure what. Maybe you have some ideas! Here's what is going on in my life. Hopefully I can focus on a few of these to make my blog worth reading. Help me with ideas!

-Work:4 months into my new job, and still love it! It'd be hard to post about much because I have so much confidentiality (HIPAA).

-Marriage: Past the 1st year mark in this marriage journey. Things are good. I learn something new everyday. I guess I could post about all the ups and downs, and how I learned from those things.

-Friends: I am expanding my group of friends, still small group though

-Church issues: Beliefs, struggles, and trying to figure out where I belong. I struggle with socializing in church because of past "burns" from a previous church.

-Trying to have a baby: Been trying since the end of February. Not tracking it so well because I'm lazy and forget. We aren't in a hurry, but each month of nothing is starting to suck. I had to get some blood tests done this past week because I'm late 2 months due to well not ...you know..the "O" word. Stupid nurses/doctors haven't explained my results to me clearly. Oh well.

-Weight: Trying to encourage myself to get in shape, and lose some weight. I am horrible at diets.

-Uhm...you think of a category!