Spring Break

I figured I'd post since I'm waiting until it's time to make Pizza Eggrolls for dinner! Sounds good right?

I took 3 days off of work this week for 3 reasons:

1. It's spring break, and it's hard to see any kids.

2. They changed the policies for what to do when schools are out, and I am not a fan.

3. I need a small break after the crappy month I've had at work.

My mom came over everyday to help me get my house clean and organized! Seriously she was SOOOO much help! I had a list of like 30 things I want to get done in the next couple months, and I'm over halfway through. Lots of the other stuff will get done when I start getting stuff from showers. My house is dusted, mopped, vacuumed, and rooms are getting cleared out. We now have bins in each room to go through. Its just random junk we've both brought into the house haha. I didn't realize how much stuff there was to do around here. I got worn out, and my mom helped me lift things. I didn't have to use the preggo card because she wouldn't let me do a bunch of stuff. I worked in my yard a little, and got some pretty flowers. I still have to put new black weed paper down, but I'll do that when I can get help again. So let's hope I can keep my house clean for more than a week! We are both clutter bugs.

Allie Kate has been moving around some. I feel flutters randomly during the day, and especially at night. It's awesome, but I'm ready for the real crazy moving! People say I'm starting to look pregnant, but I still think I look normal and chubby. I finally went and used my maternity clothes giftcard I got for christmas. Oh my goodness.....maternity pants are incredible! I should have been wearing them for years! Clothes have never fit me right. I bought a pair of jean shorts, black capris, khaki capris, and 4 shirts for like $120 which is a pretty good. I can't wear shorts to work this summer so I had to get capris. They are super cute though, and are mucho comfortable. I'm pretty upset that my normal bra store has changed the bras. They don't hold up like they used too :( I have giant "ladies", and I have my whole life. It's a burden, and I hope to shrink them down post baby or have reduction surgery. They don't bother me like you'd think. Every now and then I have back pain, but mainly just those ugly dents in my shoulders. I guess I'm going to have to buy a comfy supportive nursing bra now, or find a new place for bras. Oh well...gotta get what works.

I have been pigging out like crazy this week! I'm like a person on drugs! I snack all the time. Now I don't eat crappy stuff. Mostly I snack on popcorn, leftovers, occasional fries, cookies, pickles, or yogurt. Its a nice mixture of healthy and non healthy stuff. I don't have cravings, but I can tell I have an increase in appetite. I gotta slow it down! I need to start walking ,but I can't get my fat butt up. The past few weeks at work drained every bit of my energy, and all I wanted to do was come home and sit. I am struggling with sleeping lately. I don't know if I'm not sleeping all night, or if I'm just not getting comfortable.

I go back to work tomorrow :( I need to step it up at work, and suck up my frustrations. My job is really great, and I shouldn't gripe. Random...Pioneer Woman Chicken Spaghetti is amazing if you substitute the pimentos with Rotel and add Velveeta instead of all shredded cheese. I'm on day 3 of leftovers!

Yeah...I ran out of things to say. Pizza eggroll time! Pray I don't burn my house down frying!

Halfway! 20 weeks

How far along: 20 weeks! Halfway there

Total weight gain: -2lbs! I've lost 5lbs since my first appt in december, and gained 3 back in the past month haha!

Size and growth of the baby: She is as long as a banana, and about 10 oz I think. I compare her to a bottle of water.

Sex: A little lady!

Maternity clothes: I'm off to buy maternity pants today. I can still wear my other "fat pants", but they are becoming a little tight or not fitting like normal. Basically I need a whole new summer wardrobe :)

Sleep: Ehh...I have a hard time staying asleep. I toss and turn a lot.

Best moment(s) of the week: Reaching 20 weeks! Finding out she is a SHE last week! Feeling flutters

Movement: Flutters randomly during the day, but mostly at night when I'm about to go to sleep.

Food cravings/aversions: Crave pickles (but I've always been that way),cheese dip, curly fries, and steak!

Morning sickness: None. Never had morning sickness!

Symptoms: Dizziness, Fatigue, is laziness one? :)

Labor signs: None thank goodness

Belly button in or out: In, very in

What I miss: Sleeping all night!

Update

I suck at blogging :( I gotta clean my house tonight so I can't type a long post.

Quick update:

Crazy work stuff is worked out.

Get to know what baby is in less than 48 hours!

My husband rocks!

Still keep praying. I have a horrible past few days. I don't handle certain things well. I have been so nervous, crying and worrying. I can't get my head clear! I have temporary relief during my evenings only. It probably doesn't help that I have crazy hormones right now. I haven't felt so anxious in years. Just pray...pray I get peace and regain sanity

Prayer

Say a quick pray for me real fast...some crap at work is making me a nervous wreck! Pray I have peace, not worry about it, and let it blow over!

New Orleans 2011

I am finally posted pics from our trip to New Orleans for the Sugar Bowl. I couldn't find my camera, and Kyle found it in the car last night.

I found a way to get on second floor!

I LOVE the French architecture

Oak Alley Plantation

We are cute! I look chubby, blah

The Day of Love

This day has been pretty awesome! I am blessed to be healthy, have a great job, and fabulous husband! Let me break down my day in small paragraphs!

Doctor

Today was our 3rd baby appointment. We were there early, and very annoyed by some redneck guy talking loudly to anyone who would listen in the waiting room. Women wait quietly or talk to ladies near them. Men either sit there looking bored out of their minds, or feel the need to talk loudly! I don't get it. This guy talked for a good 15 minutes. The poor guy in front of him was so polite, but you could tell he was losing his patience. This guy kept talking about some shooting in oklahoma and other random crap! I was busy playing solitaire on my phone, and sending messages to Kyle while he was sitting next to me. We got in there and I asked my nurse about her husband. I went to high school with him, and I saw her pic on his facebook yesterday and it took us forever to place her! She was all excited that I knew him, and we talked about it for a while. I gave her a lovely urine sample too! I actually spilled some of it on myself, but she didn't know that. It's hard to get all your pee in a cup! She checked my blood pressure, and it is still very good. We chatted for a bit, and then we waited for the doctor. Kyle and I have the best time waiting. We sit there, and he laughs at me while I get all nosy in the room. I read everything on the wall, and wiggle my legs on the table. My doctor came in, and immediately asked if I have been getting sick recently. No ma'am! Apparently I have lost 5lbs!! Yay!!! I bet it's from that week I had a sinus infection, and lived off soup. I also am eating a whole lot better, and less than normal. Gooooo me! Best diet I've ever been on, and actually stuck to! She then got out the doppler thing to check the heartbeat. It took forever for her to find it! I was getting nervous, but she said "Hey its ok it just takes some time". I love her...she's very comforting. She's pressing down on my organs and all the sudden we hear "Swwwwiiiick"! I was confused and thought it was maybe my tummy growling weird, but she said it was a KICK! Yeah, my baby got mad and kicked at or around the doppler thing! How cool is that???!!! I don't feel it yet though :( She eventually found the heartbeat. It's the best sound in the world :) She said "baby sounds perfect". Yes! I have a perfect heartbeat baby! We then had to schedule our ultrasound appointment! We are both dying to know what it is, and well I want to go before the growing kids sale on March 10-12th. Originally we would have gone to the doctor March 14th, but she is letting us come in March 10th!! 24 days until I find out what it is!!!!!! I swear its a boy. I have no idea why, but I do. So the countdown begins!

Work

I have honestly been a slacker since the year started. I don't really know why, but I have. Recently I have been trying to break some bad lazy habits! Today I wanted to get my stuff done so I could go home, and get my rolls out to rise. I have a certain productivity number to reach, and today I surpassed it by over 10! I'm so proud of myself! It was a great day at work! I haven't seen the kids since last tuesday due to snow. There was some normal drama, but I had some good times with a few of them. There is a special place in my heart for those kiddos :)

Marriage

Kyle and I were already very excited because of the fun doctor's appointment, and knowing when we get to find out boy/girl! Something about hearing a kick just made our day. I'm so blessed to be problem free, and healthy! Kyle and I sent each other sweet messages all day, and I thought of him constantly. Ok so this is not out of the ordinary haha. I came home early to find him at the house putting my flowers and gifts on the counter! He's so sweet! He has good taste in flowers, and I got a random assortment. It's pretty, and smells yummo! When he got home from work he was romantic. There I am in pajamas, and my hair up and he thinks I'm just the most gorgeous thing ever. Silly boy! I love him so much! I honestly feel like I fall in love with him more and more each day. He's going to be such an amazing daddy! I love seeing how excited he gets about it! Ok time to go snuggle with my lovebug!

Valentine's Day 2011

Let's look at what's there! There is a delicious red velvet cake from Paul's Bakery for my man! I made him a few cards with construction paper. I bought him a "Daddy & Me" frame :) He bought me some pretty amazing beautiful perfect flowers in cute vase thing!!! I like flowers, except for the fact that they die. He got me a box of chocolates, and a very very very thoughtful card!

I bought some good quality steak's from Paul's Meat Market, and we made PW Ribeye with Whiskey Cream Sauce. Oh my gosh....it was fantabulous! I made some creamy mashed potatoes, and rosemary rolls too. We are stuffed! I have not been this stuffed in years! I can barely move. We are both zombies in our fat pants. Somehow we managed to eat some cake 30 minutes later hah!

Bad Week

This week has sucked!

Dottie

We took my precious Dottie to the Humane Society on thursday :( We couldn't find a home for her, and they had an opening that day. She was tearing up the cord on our air conditioner unit, wood on our desk, tearing out sheet rock in our garage, and destroying anything she could find. She barked all the time for no reason. Vet said she was bored somehow. We have talked about what to do for a few months, and we finally decided that we had to get rid of her. We aren't going so spend $400+ to retrain her because who knows if that will work and it could take months. Also we now have over $300 worth of damage to fix from her. She is a playful big puppy! She likes to have her belly rubbed, and wants to sit in your lap. She needs a home that has little kids who can run around with her and play all day. We work all day, and don't have the time and I sure don't have the energy to give her the attention she deserves. We have our other lab Abby, but she is 3 years old and not in that hyper puppy stage. If I wasn't pregnant we would have kept her probably. We were concerned that she would cause more damage, and bark when we had a newborn all the time. We aren't bad pet owners. I feel like one though. We really tried with her. I cry every single time I think about her. When we dropped her off she was sooooooooooooo sweet and good! She was playful, and obeyed. The lady at the humane society probably thought we were weird for bringing in such a sweet puppy. It made it worse that she was so perfect at that moment. We both cried when we left. Heck, we still cry about it. It has been hard the past few days to deal with her being gone. The silence is WEIRD! I miss her crazy hyper precious face :( Hopefully she will be adopted soon. They said they would call us when she is adopted :)

I miss you, and love you very much! I hope you are adopted by a wonderful family!

Sick

It was inevitable that I would get sick. I am constantly around kids at work, and the flu/cold/sinuses/stomach bug has exploded around there. I started to feel crummy on Thursday morning, and it only got worse and worse. I am pretty sure I either had a bad sinus infection or a head cold. It didn't help that I cried most of thursday about giving Dottie away. I didn't have body aches, just a runny nose and I felt like my head was going to explode at any moment! Thank goodness it wasn't the flu! Kyle and I went to walgreens to find me medicine that was on my approved pregnancy list. I was so worried to take any medicine, but I needed it. Sudafed is what worked best. I tried to not take more than 2 a day. I was miserable. I quarantined myself to our guest bedroom just in case I was contagious. I hate sleeping alone! I snuck in to snuggle with Kyle a few times, but I immediately started coughing or sneezing. I am a horrible patient, and loathe being sick. I could not get to sleep, and woke up from 2-4 every morning. I started feeling better today so yay!

So it has taken me 13 weeks to vomit during this pregnancy. I started gagging on friday when I put my prenatal vitamin in my mouth them BAM....hello toliet! It was gross. I didn't even feel nauseous. I took my vitamin the next day and was fine. Must have been a bad gagging moment. I'm starting to feel pukey again today probably because of all the drainage. I feel much better today, but still weak. I ate chicken noodle soup varieties all weekend. Chicken and Stars is the best! I've lost 4lbs! I'm hoping to get under 200lbs by March. I don't expect to gain much in this pregnancy. I'm really trying to be healthy eating salads and lots of fruits.

Work

I have had a few off weeks where I wasn't giving 100% and I hate it. I got behind on stuff, and stressed. I'm making a few changes tomorrow to lessen the stress some. I need to get back on track, and back to rockin'!

Time to think Positive!

Alright no more griping about my bad week. Time to talk about the good things. Here's 10 good things about this week!

1. Kyle and I have been working hard to keep our house picked up all week, and we succeeded!

2. I got caught up on some movies on the DVR!

3. Finally started writing in the pregnancy calendar my mom bought me for Christmas.

4. Ate healthy stuff like salads for lunch.

5. Stayed hydrated while sick.

6. Started having crazy worries about Baby T being affected by my sickness, and immediately starting praying. God calmed me!

7. I can feel my uterus! It's a hard spot down near my growing pudgie. Yeah pudgie. It kind of blends in with my fat, but I can tell where I'll start showing first. I'm ready to feel/look pregnant.

8. Started being emotional over every little thing haha

9. Praised God for such a wonderful helpful husband!

10. Trying to be an encouragement to friends by praying for them, and being open about it.

Ho Hum

A ton of kids at school have the stomach bug or the flu. SCARY! I share an office with my co-worker in the nurse's office. All those sickies are around me all day. I am praying so hard that I do not get sick. I think taking a vitamin helps, and using hand sanitizer all day.

I feel crummy today. I'm exhausted. So exhausted I could fall asleep right now. I ate chili cheese tots for breakfast which probably wasn't the best choice. I had a delicious salad and yogurt for lunch though! Kyle picked up Taco Bell for dinner, and I almost gagged eating my chili cheese burrito. It wasn't bad, but one certain bite was icky. I feel like I am going back to having a hard time wanting to eat, or having any idea what I want. Wait...I still could eat a salad 24/7 though :) I have felt good this whole 13 weeks, and I am finally being thankful. I thank God every night for feeling so good. I still get a little stupid, and think "is the baby still there?" but again I remember what my friend said "Meagan, it doesn't just fall out, and you would know if something was wrong". I can feel my uterus a little bit. It's a little hard knot thing. I'm rambling. I'm sorry.

I am currently watching Julie and Julia. This movie is so cute! I have cried 5 times so far in it for no reason!!!! Stupid hormones. I have random crying fits. I was so hateful and grumpy to Kyle earlier, and now I just want him home to snuggle. I am becoming clingy. I want him here at all times just to be around. At night I hug him, and just thank God for bringing such a wonderful man in my life. Crying again fyi! Kyle is so wonderful! He is helpful, kind, and hilarious. I want him to get done with choir so I can hug him!

Ok that's all I have. Maybe I'll get some good sleep tonight!

12 Weeks

So I'm in the safe zone!!!! Everything has gone great so far! I feel pretty good most of the time. I had a big huge post planned, but I need to get caught up on some work. I'll post it when I get time.

I'm doing my 12 week update now even though it's not technically until tomorrow

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 12 Weeks

Size of baby: About 2 inches long

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Lost 5lbs!

Maternity Clothes: Still in my normal fat girl clothes

Gender: No idea, but I find out at my appt. in March!

Movement: None :(

What I miss: Sleeping through the night!

Cravings: Salad, but NO chicken. Chicken is grossing me out!

Symptoms: Mostly tiredness, still have to tell myself to eat because I never feel hungry, a little bit of nausea, and stupid indigestion

Best Moment this week: Hearing the heartbeat again on monday! It's still there!

10 Weeks

Well I keep inching closer and closer to the "safe zone". I have an appointment in a little over a week, woop woop! I hope I get another ultrasound or something. I still get nervous that I won't hear a heartbeat. It's crazy, but I always think somethings wrong with me when I don't have a lot of symptoms. I have to keep telling myself that I have to trust God, and that every woman is different when pregnant. Here's my 10 week information:

How far along: 10 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain: 0 pounds! Pretty sure I have lost 3-5lbs somewhere. I need to buy new bras. Seriously...I'll be in a size "Z" by the time this kid gets here.

Size and growth of the baby: Apparently it's the size of a kumquat. Yeah go ahead...I giggled when I heard that word too. I remember it being a "dirty" word we called people in junior high. Apparently its a fruit, good to know.

Sex: Too soon to tell, but everyone I know wants me to have a boy. Lots of people say its a boy because I haven't been sick really.

Maternity clothes: None yet although my mom and I went to the maternity stores to look at stuff. I have a few shirts, and a dress that I can wear eventually. I still live in my fat comfy pants, but that's been normal for years haha. Oh and again....new bras must be purchased soon.

Sleep: I get exhausted throughout the day and am usually asleep by 9 or 10 at night. However I am now getting up to pee at random times in the night.

Best moment(s) of the week: Reaching the 10 week mark problem free!

Movement: To soon to feel anything yet which BLOWS

Food cravings/aversions: Caesar salad=YUMMY in my tummy! Chicken smell=Gross! I don't have a big appetite, and have to tell myself to eat. I stare at my food, and then slowly eat it.

Morning sickness: Not bad at all. I sometimes feel queasy, but it doesn't last long. Usually I just need to eat something, or take a Tums.

Symptoms: Freaking tired all the time. A few headaches here and there. If my stomach is empty it lets me know, and makes me eat!

Labor signs: Uhm...non existent. My doors are staying closed for a while.

Belly button in or out: In..big time. It's like a cave!

What I miss: I fall asleep better, but I don't stay asleep. I toss and turn a lot, and I HATE sleeping on my sides and back only.

What I'm looking forward to: Being out of the first trimester in a few weeks. I'm ready for my appointment on the 17th!

Craving

I officially have my first craving! Drumroll....................................................................................................

Caesar Salad! I noticed that every time I go to a restaurant that is the one thing I order with anything. In New Orleans I would get gumbo, and randomly order a caesar salad everyday. I give myself some credit for having a healthy craving. Yes, I think caesar salad dressing is healthy. I'm totally going to get some salad dressing from olive garden soon. It's only $5!

Funny story

For once I was on my way to work super early, and realized I had no gas to get there. I stopped at the gas station by Ben Geren, and when I got out the car I immediately smelled convenient store greasy chicken and gasoline. I had to go inside and dry heave for about 3 minutes. During the wonderful moment hanging over the toliet, I sneezed....and peed myself. *SIGH* I ran out of there, and went straight home to change. How embarassing right!? I have serious smell issues with chicken. If I'm near it, I'll eat it and its all good. I just can't stand the thought of it, and especially nasty convenient store chicken. That's really the only food issue I have thank goodness.

Kyle and I went to New Orleans this week....CAJUN FOOD IS INCREDIBLE!!! New Orleans is lame, but the food...oh my gosh.................YUM!!! I could eat gumbo and any kind of etoufee alllllll day!

Ok bye...gotta go to a 2 year olds birthday party

9 Weeks!

I am getting closer and closer to that "safe zone". My 2nd appointment is in a few weeks/few days! I'm ready to see how much different my baby looks! I'm feeling pretty good. Getting used to being tired all the time. Last night around 9:30pm I felt my body ready to sleep. I stayed up until 11:00pm to see how I felt. I was not a person haha. I was some kind of zombie. The body pillow is helping me sleep, but poor Kyle losing room in the bed now. I giggled today when I drank some water, and immediately had to pee. I experimented with it all day. Water does not like to stay in my body long.

We leave for New Orleans tomorrow morning. Pray for our safety. Being in a car doesn't bother me, but I haven't been in one for hours and hours since I've been pregnant. We are going to the Sugar Bowl..actually the boys are and I'm hanging out with one of the wives. I LOVE cajun food, and I am so excited to try new stuff! I hope my tummy can handle it though. I'll have to take it easy on the spicy stuff which stinks :( We'll have a good time. Neither of us has ever been there before.

Little Gripe Session

I need to gripe for a minute. I've had a week where I was nauseous. Then for a few weeks I had indigestion, and discovered the miracle of Tums. Now I feel exhausted. I could sleep for days. If I take a nap its for 3 hours. I don't feel bad because I take a few Tums a day, and eat small meals throughout the day. I just feel blah and puny. I get hungry sometimes, but feel stuffed and like I'll explode after a few bites. I know it's all normal. I know I don't need to gripe because I have a tiny precious baby trying to grow arms/legs. I'm a terrible patient. I miss energy. This pregnancy is taking forever!!!!!!!!!! In happy news...I found out I get 12 weeks off for maternity, but only get paid for 3 or 4 :( Oh well.

Baby T!

Hello! My name is Baby T!

Can I just say first of all that GOD freakin' rocks! I am so blessed to have this little miracle growing in my dear old uterus! Now onto my story from today. It's random, but that's normal.

I didn't sleep well last night, and I was really nervous. I have peed on over 15 sticks, and I was still not convinced. For some reason I made myself look super cute,and even curled my hair! So we get to the doctors office, and sit there for like 10 minutes. It was 8:10am so it wasn't that busy. I just wanted to get in there, and I kept thinking of how I was going to ask for an ultrasound or something. First we met with the accounts, and let me tell you how thankful I am for the awesome maternity insurance we have. The lady gave me some pregnancy planner which was cool! So..after what felt like an eternity we got called back there. I got weighed, and I am pretty sure I was 8lbs lighter than last time I was there a month ago so yay for that. I had to go pee in a cup. I couldn't find the cups at first then I saw that it was a freakin' paper cup that said "pee speciman" or something like that. I laughed as I peed and missed most of the cup! Oh well, it was enough for that test strip she put in it. The nurse was super nice, and asked me all the basic questions. I giggled to myself when she talked about checking for STD's. She looked at my chart, and was like "wow you were just in here, that worked fast". Heck yes it did! All those blood tests, and meds were worth it! I asked if this appointment was going to be long, and she said no. Well that confused me because I thought it was the longest one. Kyle then asked if we'd get any confirmation today, and she said "Oh yeah we were able to squeeze you in for an ultrasound". I was in shock! I get an ultrasound on the first visit without really asking! I was told I might have to wait until after I see Dr. Rainwater because the lady was booked up. Well the minute she said that she opened the door, and the ultrasound tech was there to say she could get me in right now. Perfect! Everything went so fast. Kyle and I just looked at each other. There I am in the ultrasound room about to drop my pants. I know the routine. Become half nakey, climb on the chair/bed, put your booty in the air. I didn't see the awkward "dildo sword". I wanted Kyle to see if so we could giggle. She comes in, and starts lubing that bad boy up! I guess it was in a drawer or something. I didn't see anything at first, and then she said "Ok the baby is in there". Then she was doing crazy stuff. It looked like watching a movie when the movie camera person was walking and trying to film. I thought I saw my uterus and a little spot in it, but I wasn't sure. She took pics of other things which I assume were my ovaries. Then I saw it. She zoomed in real good. It was my baby. It actually looked like a baby! It had that yolk sac which I thought was another baby at first, but its all good. It just has some weird blob following it around. They said it will go away soon :) I assumed it would just be a round circle. First thing I thought was "Wow, it has a giant head, and no arms!" Then I saw the most beautiful thing ever......that flickering heartbeat. It was beautiful. I was in awe, and just totally overwhelmed. It was beating so fast, and then BAM she cranked up the volume and I heard that awesome heartbeat music! There's a baby in there! It's alive! It's good! It's ours! It wasn't real! Kyle came up to stand behind me, and I should have grabbed his hand but I was just in shock. I didn't cry. I was so happy and RELIEVED! Totally awesome overwhelming experience. She took some pics, and printed some out for us! Kyle got teary eyed, but I think he probably had some streaming tears. I felt bad for not crying. So yeah...lady leaves so I can change and Kyle hugs me. Wow...we just saw AND heard our baby. We then went back into a little room to wait on my doctor. Let me tell you...I LOVE my doctor! She is just low key and sooooo sweet! She immediately started talking about how happy she was and surprised to see me back in here so early. She said "Well I just saw you a month ago, and here you are". I told her I would be a spokesperson for Clomid :) She asked how I was feeling, and then gave me a run down of what meds I can take, and other good info. I set up my next appointment on Jan 17th. That doesn't feel very far away! By then we can check it's growth better, and do a regular non-dildo ultrasound :) My due date wasn't said, but it's still Aug 4thish according to due date calendars. They gave me a big ol' bag of goodies! I got lots of vitamin samples, baby magazines, and other neat little stuff! It was like christmas at the gyno! Best gyno trip ever!

I got everything I wanted and more! It was such an easy appointment! I cannot believe we got to see and hear the baby. I am feeling good. I am not going to worry anymore. God is in control. I'm blessed, and I need to be thankful everyday. I SAW/HEARD our baby today!!! Ahhhh!!!!! I think it's cute :) Looks like an alien. I have also been saying that it's a paraplegic since it doesn't have legs/arms. Yeah I knowthat's horrible, but it cracks me up! It's also a hermaphrodite since it has no definable weewee or uhm vajayjay haha. Ok I'm done.

I decided to start that Pregnancy Highlight thing I see a lot. I didn't look up the medical answers, haha. I just make them up!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 7 Weeks 6 Days

Size of baby: 1/2 in or the size of a kidney bean I think

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Ha! Hard to say since I'm already a chubbo :)

Maternity Clothes: I wear "comfy" pants, and have for years. I bought a few maternity shirts recently for later

Gender: Too early to tell silly

Movement: Too early again silly

Sleep: Not good! It takes me FOREVER to fall asleep even though I am completely exhausted. I swear indigestion starts every morning at 1:30am.

What I miss: Sleep, and Dr. Pepper

Cravings: Pizza (which I normally am not a big fan of)

Symptoms: Mostly tiredness, indigestion, lack of appetite

Best Moment this week: Seeing my precious baby, and seeing AND hearing the heartbeat!

News

15+ pee sticks say PREGNANT or !! (yeah that's two lines)

I found out the day after thanksgiving. More details later.

First Prenatal Appointment is this wednesday at 8:30am. I'm nervous and excited. Pray that everything is good so I can FINALLY make an official announcement!

News for you...but you'll have to wait until next week! hahahaahahahaahahaha!

Quick update

Nurse called and my progesterone blood test showed I did ovulate. No shiz...I already knew that! Stupid test only told me that one thing. Now I wait....to see if dear old evil "lady" shows up. If not, I'll start peeing on sticks like crazy! Good news..clomid works. Good news..if I have to take it again I stay at the same dosage. Not so good news..I don't know if I'm preggo or not :( GARRRRR I should be thankful, but I'm frustrated.

Now to have food therapy...PW pecan pie!!!!

Update: I'm ok now. I had my small moment of frustration. I'm doing great right now! I realized that I could still be preggo, and to just give it some time to "season". OR I have good chances of conceiving in the upcoming months. Gooooo......baby making!!

Total Praise

Tonight..heck today was rough. I thought it'd be smart to pee on a stick so I had an idea what to expect from my blood test this morning. Bad idea again...it was a lovely negative. I wasn't surprised/bummed though. I got to St. Edwards to get my blood test done, and it's just to test my progesterone. The lady in the lab didn't have any answers to my questions so I'll just wait until I get the results via phone tomorrow from the nurse. I researched what progesterone test shows, but still don't get it. I then hurried to work because I had to attend staff development. I loved it. I loved feeling like a teacher. I loved being bored, yet understanding everything they were talking about. I then started to think about how grateful I am for my job. Teaching would be nice someday, but I feel blessed to have my job. I have a great boss, and I love helping kids with drama haha. Then I had some stupid issues come up where I was just plain annoyed with people. I need a break from people/work. I'm starting to become cranky, and annoyed easily. I know today I had a lot on my mind.

I finished my work day, and went to get all my thanksgiving grocery shopping done with my mommy. My mommy is like my best friend sometimes, and I love that. I went home, and looked at my awful horrible nasty house. I need to clean so bad! It's embarrassing. I will get motivated this week, but today I wasn't feeling it. I made PW Pasta w/ Creamy Tomato Sauce, and it was delicious. I then started to watch tv with my man. I was quiet, he noticed. I have been randomly quiet lately. Usually I'm acting retarded and laughing hysterically, and yelling "penis" at random moments. I was sulking. I was sulking because I don't believe I am pregnant. I was sulking because I know trying again will just drag on and on and on until I explode. Kyle is being so optimistic, and I push him away because I want to have a pity party. How selfish is that? Why am I being so awful to him and myself? I'm not trusting God all the time. I only gave up a little of my pain/worries. I knew I needed time to think. I went and took a steamy hot bubble bath. I read more of "Hannah's Hope". Hannah at the time was struggling with infertility,and her husband Elkanah took another wife who bore him lots of children. Hannah was jealous, and went all crazy like how I feel. You know what? Her husband loved her no matter what. Yes, he had another wife, but his heart belonged to Hannah. Beautiful right? A few nights about I told Kyle that I would be 100% happy with just him forever, and I mean it. I really could spend my whole life HAPPY and completely in love, just the two of us. A baby is just an added bonus. We want a little piece of each other, but we would be ok if God did not have that in store of us. I know it's early, and I'm not trying to be a downer. I am just starting to realize how amazing God is. He gave me such a wonderful man. A

Ok back to my story...so after my bath I started to get really emotional and convicted. I was being sooooo stupid and selfish. I needed to be alone, with God. I don't usually do that because I feel guilty for not being the daughter God calls me to be. I let my guard down. I let it all go. I turned on my ipod to a particular song. I cried. Quiet sobs. Crying out to God for the first time that I can remember. He spoke to me. He comforted me. He has a plan for me, and I need to open my ears and heart to it. I then went outside to cry. I listened to the song again, and just started up at the sky. I felt peace. Tears were still streaming down my face. I remembered this verse I've been reading a lot:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own". Matt 6:34

Powerful right? heck yes it is! I went back inside to crawl into bed. My husband came in to just hold me while I slowly cried. God is good. I am finally under his wings, and not trying to control my life anymore.

Please listen to this song when you get a chance. It's incredible, and I had the most intense moment with God listening to it.

.Here are the lyrics:

Lord, I will lift mine eyes to the hills

Knowing my help is coming from You

Your peace You give me in time of the storm

You are the source of my strength

You are the strength of my life

I lift my hands in total praise to You.

You are the source of my strength

You are the strength of my life

I lift my hands in total praise to You.

Amen, amen

Amen, amen

Amen, amen

Amen, amen

PW

I want to talk to you briefly about The Pioneer Woman. This woman changed the way I cook. I was a good cook, but I have become an AMAZING cook because of her recipes. I no longer have meals that don't include her Rosemary Rolls. They are life changing, and I have a list of friends who would agree. If I met her today I would tell her thank you. Thank you for the 15lbs I've gained since I got married. Thank you for all the wonderful detailed instructions you give me. Thank you for having some of the funniest tweets. Thank you for being such a good cook. I want to hug you.

Here are some of my favorites (I love them all, but these came to my mind first):

-Lasagna

-Pasta w/ tomato cream sauce

-ROSEMARY ROLLS

-Cajun meatloaf

Go to thepioneerwoman.com, and see your life change! Read her story about she met her husband, it's adorable!

Tomorrow

I saw 6 pregnancy announcements on facebook today. SERIOUSLY!

Tomorrow I go get my blood test to see if I ovulated, and hopefully it tells if I'm preggo. I have been ok the past few days. I'm not optimistic at all. The one thing getting me through it all is reading the book Melissa gave me called Hannah's Hope. God works miracles in all situations. This round may not have been my month, but there is always hope next time. I should know in the next few days.

My boobs hurt like crazy, but they have been off and on since I started progesterone a month ago...so I shouldn't read into it.

Pray for me!